Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Chakara! TY SAM!

Sahasrara: The Crown Chakra

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Sahasrara is generally considered to be the chakra of pure consciousness. Its role may be envisioned somewhat similarly to that of the pituitary gland, which secretes hormones to communicate to the rest of the endocrine system and also connects to the central nervous system via the hypothalamus. The thalamus is thought to have a key role in the physical basis of consciousness. Symbolized by a lotus with one thousand petals, it is located at the crown of the head. Sahasrara is represented by the colour violet and it involves such issues as inner wisdom and the death of the body. Sahasrara's inner aspect deals with the release of karma, physical action with meditation, mental action with universal consciousness and unity, and emotional action with "beingnness".[25]

[edit]Ajna: The Brow Chakra

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Ajna (along with Bindu, is also known as the third eye chakra) is linked to the pineal gland which may inform a model of its envisioning. The pineal gland is a light sensitive gland that produces the hormone melatonin which regulates sleep and waking up. Ajna is symbolised by a lotus with two petals, and corresponds to the colour white, indigo or deep blue. Ajna's key issues involve balancing the higher & lower selves and trusting inner guidance. Ajna's inner aspect relates to the access of intuition. Emotionally, Ajna deals with clarity on an intuitive level.[26]

(Note: some opine that the pineal and pituitary glands should be exchanged in their relationship to the Crown and Brow chakras, based on the description in Arthur Avalon's book onkundalini called Serpent Power or empirical research.)

[edit]Vishuddha: The Throat Chakra

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Vishuddha (also Vishuddhi) may be understood as relating to communication and growth through expression. This chakra is paralleled to the thyroid, a gland that is also in the throat and which produces thyroid hormone, responsible for growth and maturation. Symbolised by a lotus with sixteen petals. Vishudda is characterized by the color light or pale blue, or turquoise. It governs such issues as self-expression and communication, as discussed above. Physically, Vishuddha governs communication, emotionally it governs independence, mentally it governs fluent thought, and spiritually, it governs a sense of security.[27]

[edit]Anahata: The Heart Chakra

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Anahata, or Anahata-puri, or padma-sundara is related to the thymus, located in the chest. The thymus is an element of the immune system as well as being part of the endocrine system. It is the site of maturation of the T cells responsible for fending off disease and may be adversely affected by stress. Anahata is symbolised by a lotus flower with twelve petals. (See also heartmind). Anahata is related to the colours green or pink. Key issues involving Anahata involve complex emotions, compassion, tenderness, unconditional love, equilibrium, rejection and well being. Physically Anahata governs circulation, emotionally it governs unconditional love for the self and others, mentally it governs passion, and spiritually it governs devotion.[28]

[edit]Manipura: The Solar Plexus Chakra

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Manipura or manipuraka is related to the metabolic and digestive systems. Manipura is believed to correspond to Islets of Langerhans,[29] which are groups of cells in the pancreas, as well as the outer adrenal glands and the adrenal cortex. These play a valuable role in digestion, the conversion of food matter into energy for the body. Symbolised by a lotus with ten petals. The colour that corresponds to Manipura is yellow. Key issues governed by Manipura are issues of personal power, fear, anxiety, opinion-formation, introversion, and transition from simple or base emotions to complex. Physically, Manipura governs digestion, mentally it governs personal power, emotionally it governs expansiveness, and spiritually, all matters of growth.[30]

[edit]Svadhisthana: The Sacral Chakra

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Swadhisthana, Svadisthana or adhishthana is located in the sacrum (hence the name) and is considered to correspond to the testes or the ovaries that produce the various sex hormones involved in the reproductive cycle. Svadisthana is also considered to be related to, more generally, the genitourinary system and the adrenals. The Sacral Chakra is symbolized by a lotus with six petals, and corresponds to the colour orange. The key issues involving Svadisthana are relationships, violence, addictions, basic emotional needs, and pleasure. Physically, Svadisthana governs reproduction, mentally it governs creativity, emotionally it governs joy, and spiritually it governs enthusiasm.[31]

[edit]Muladhara: The Base Chakra

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Muladhara or root chakra is related to instinct, security, survival and also to basic human potentiality. This centre is located in the region between the genitals and the anus. Although no endocrine organ is placed here, it is said to relate to the gonads and the adrenal medulla, responsible for the fight-or-flight response when survival is under threat. There is a muscle located in this region that controls ejaculation in the sexual act of the human male. A parallel is charted between the sperm cell and the ovum where the genetic code lies coiled and thekundalini. Muladhara is symbolized by a lotus with four petals and the colour red. Key issues involve sexuality, lust and obsession. Physically, Muladhara governs sexuality, mentally it governs stability, emotionally it governs sensuality, and spiritually it governs a sense of security.[32]

Woodroffe also describes 7 head chakras (including Ajna and Sahasrara) in his other Indian text sources. Lowest to highest they are: Talu/Talana/Lalana, Ajna, Manas, Soma, Brahmarandra, Sri (inside Sahasrara), Sahasrara.

Slut.

my my.
I love finding out i spent two years dating a scum bag.
a few things happening.
Apparently my ex is a big slut now.
some times i like to fuck people I've known for a week too
I don't blame him.
[cough]

On a brighter note.
I contacted Emma.
apparently she was told that she shouldn't contact me
because I apparently hate her.
Wonder who told her that?
could it be a sertin boy
who diens't want two girls he's playing to find out the truth about him?
nahh.

I wonder if the current love of his life is going to enjoy all the lying
and cheating
and nude pictures he puts on hte internet of himself behind her back.
Just hope she knows her stuff
otherwise he's going to get away with it.
like he tried to do with me.

I don't play like that
you do hsit, I will find out
and i WILL get you back
that's a promise!

Emma and I will be speaking some time soon
I guess she really wanted to talk to me.
I'm considering asking her to go for coffee to tlak about this
I know i'll just drown her out with questions over MSN.
We'll see.
Shit's gonna fly.
-Mar

I could be so much more then this.

Does anyone see a trend?

Uhhhh
another bad night.
Words can not express how I feel.
I always hated cuddeling
now I'd do anything to cuddle with someone I care about
but there's no one I care about
that I'd want to cuddle wtih
so it' just like.
an empty unfulfillable want.

If I played sims.
and my sim felt the way I feel.
My sim would have such a low meter,
it'd be so red it'd be black.
Some times I like to draw out my meter thing
in real life
make bars for my hunger and energy, etc.
Yeah I'm weird like that.

I have a fucking cold.
fancy that.
I never get sick. Who got me sick?
When I find out who got me sick...
Oueeeeeeeee T.T
Sleep. I want to sleep forever.
I have counseling tomorrow at six.
good timing too.
Uhhhh I need some happiness.
I need new people in my life.
i need a FWB
I need my life to go back to grade 10 second term.
best time of my life.
and i just disregarded it.

I fucking hate you!
I hate that you did this to us.
We were happy
and you ruined it.
and you're a broken man now
because you cna't stop lieing,
and cheating,
and messing with people's heads,
and being a two faced piece of shit.
You don't even deserve anyone.
if it wasn't for fucking stupid despreat people like yourself,
you wouldn't have anyone.
I guess that means I was a stupid despreat person.

I'm beside myself about everything right now
Who am I what do i want?
I'm jsut spewing words.
word puke.
I'm pretty much writing every word
that comes to my mind.
I'm down. So down.
I have homework
but I don't have the will to even look at it.
I barely have the will to take out my contacts.
Someone help me please.
I cna't go on like this for mcuh longer.
-Mar =[

Monday, October 5, 2009

This didn't have a name untill now.

hmm.
well today was pretty okay.
each day gets easier.
seriously easier.
I really do see a difference in myself with each rising sun.
I'm working on exposing the deceiver.
just so people don't get conned
when they don't deserve to be conned
.AHH FUCK
my microdermals really aren't liking the abuse I'm inflicting upon them.

I pretty mcuh hook them on my finger nails
every time they get itchy.
T.T
Drew's online.
wonder if he'll talk to me tonight. >.>
*sigh* U.U
Drew then bed.
-Mar

Sunday, October 4, 2009

KISS ME ON MY MOUTH!

WELL I'm in a good mood.
A boy messaged mer this morning
and it made me upset
he was being a huge douche bag
So I blocked him.
He told me I was a bad driver
and I can't believe after being together for two years
he can treat me wtih cu h disrespect.
it's disgusting
and disgraseful.

ANYWAYS i got over that pretty fast.
I'm working on hanging out and getting to know the next boy.
He's pree oke. Not sure how i'm going to go about this but
It has me doing back flips =]
I'm going to go sleepy sleeps nao!
<3333
-Mar

BBY KITTIES!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

I saw a boy today.

He reminded me of someone I used to know.
But I've never seen him in my life;
I'd like to think.
I just went to lay down
with teh idea of calling him.
then I remembered,
that won't be happening anymore.
or ever again.
-Mar

As far as I'm concerned...



I've been single for the past two years,
and Kenzie Koltek Never existed.
It's time for healing.
you can not forget what never was.
-Mar

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

destroy something beautiful.

SO it took about four days
for [unrecognized name] to move on to a third girl.
I'm pretty disgusted with him
and disappointed with myself
for allowing him to get to me like this.

I'm pretty tired, I have a bit of homework for English
But I think I may nap.

Last night after Dave left
I didn't wan to leave
because then [unrecognized name] would be alone with her
and and I know what would have happened
and probably did,
despite him telling me otherwise.
I know I have to stop torturing myself like this!
I know i have to forget him,
and never talk to him again
But I can't!

I have no one else,
I'm thinking too much about the right now
not enough about the later.
-Mar

Saturday, September 26, 2009

176$

Yeah that's all I have in my account now. U.U
I dyed my hair black
and it ruined my nails,
now I have to paint over them T.T
oh well, manicure is getting old looking anyway
good time for a change.
I have to choose from white or hot pink.
I think white.

I work at eight tomorrow morning.
well this morning really.
uhmmmmm
I'm going to have to wake up at six so i can get ready.
thinking about actually starting to wear makeup
Well, ther reason I stopped,
wasn't just because it's time consuming,
and I'm late for everything.
But because my makeup is shit
it wears off
and smudges onto my bottom lid.
BUT I'm going to start wearing it anyway
beucase i look ugly
and I don't like it.
SO,
nails tehn bed!
-Mar

Friday, September 25, 2009

Deranged piggie backs.

I don't know what exactly [unrecognized name] was triyng to prove here.
but it was a good laugh in the least.
Someone apparently made a comment about how I'm skinnier!
How I lost weight!
SOMEONE I DON"T EVEN KNOW!
which means it's significantly noticeable
I am quite pleased!
I'm off tomorrow,
then I have morning shifts on Saturday and sunday
this weekend will probably be alright.

I love that we have WiFi at work!
I can use my ipod all I want!
and be in MSN and all that jazzi-nuss!
I've grown quite fond of the group Ratatat
Old school rap has a place in my heart.
I dig, I dig.
I jsut had the sudden urge to watch that movie..
what's it called?
SHIT! now this is going to bug me!
BLAH forget it
I'm going to sleep!
-Mar