I need a vacation.

This weekend was nothing that I planned or hoped for.
She's a nice person. Don't really know her
but I'd definably get along with her.
She's a better version of me.
And more like him.
I can't compete.

I'm starting to think
why do people want to be around me

at all?
I'm getting depressed again.
when you start thinking about dieing

you've pretty much arrived.
I hate that I still love you so much.

And you'll never know even if i tried to explain.
-Mar

I'm holding onto this life and love and for
The possibility
You and me

Let me I need to find a way

To put this trouble behind us

Can't spend my life in shame

Making light of these dark days.